another pic of him...i should have some of him and i together soon...from easter's wedding next weekend 

my tim...cutting his cake for his surprised party two months late 

I know I talk a lot about Tim in my posts. But he is a very important part of my life. He has impacted me so much and he still does. I have done a lot of changing and developing since we started dating. I have noticed it in myself. Tim has noticed it and I am sure that others have. I have changed quite a bit since college. i was noticing that the other day. I am somewhat completely opposite than I was in school. In school I had nothing to do with getting married, cooking, taking care of someone, having a family, you know all that girly stuff. Lisa was more into that. But since Tim has come into my life as a boyfriend. I have been wanting that kind of stuff. I got this desire that will not go away. the desire to care for tim and take care of his needs. Another thing that has changed is that fact that I am happier and more giggly than usual. Also, i am spending less time concern about me and my needs. I am focused on tim's needs and concerned about him. Life does not revolve around me. I cant be in a relationship and focus on myself. thats not what a relationship is about. I have also been reading in a book that mom got for me that in order for someone to have a dating relationship or even get engaged, the people envolved need to be developed into the right person. In order to things to progess, i need to be exactly that person that tim needs. I need to have all that stuff developed. I can definately seeing myself developing more and more into that person. Life is going soo well for me. I have no compliants. I am counting my blessings daily. :)

Oh my goodness...God has blessed me with the most amazing guy ever...I could never dream that I would be dating a guy like Tim. He means so much to me. He has shown me so many things along with teaching me so much stuff. He is still teaching things and I hope will continue to teach me things. I was able to spend a very romantic and fun weekend with Tim up in the mountains in Arkansas. I was able to interact with his "second family." I was able to learn so much about him. We both were acting like high school kids in love. Many times this past weekend, I realized that i was falling for him and that I am learning to love this quiet patient godly man. The feelings keep getting deeper and deeper for him. He drives me crazy but thats in a good way. We actually been talking and discussing the future more. Seems like a lot of people are praying for Tim to live at the church camp his second family live at. We had a wonderful date tonight. Talking...on the phone. It was still wonderful.

School is going good. Well sort of. Papers and reading are definately keeping me busy busy busy. I cant wait to be done. I think I am already counting the days down. I can't wait to start a career and support Tim and take care of Tim. Excited about school being done. Tired of going to class and tired of having crazy deadlines.